This Year has Pushed Me Deeper into My Faith
I had no other choice, and I don't regret it.
I don't know how to sum up this year so far, except it has pushed me to lean deeper into my faith. Not surface faith, not morning declarations, but the kind forged in the furnace of uncertainty.
There was a season when everything around me looked and felt dry. Transitioning from the stability of a 9-to-5 into the uncharted waters of entrepreneurship shook me. It wasn’t regret. I knew I was meant to make the shift, but the reality didn’t meet my expectations. What I envisioned and what unfolded threw me for a loop.
That’s when I finally understood what it means to have “faith as a mustard seed.”
I needed faith. Just enough to believe that even in the dryness, something could grow. And things will get better.
In this season, I learned what trusting God actually looks and feels like, not as a concept, but as a lived reality. I even joked with a friend: it’s easy to talk about faith when everything is going ‘well’. But when you are going through the waters. That’s when what you really believe comes out.
I went through my waters. And that was when my faith was tested and revealed something uncomfortable: I trusted God… and didn’t. I believed in Him (God) but I have never fully surrendered everything to Him.
But that testing? That shaking? It wasn’t to break me, it was to bring me closer. I needed that refining. It taught me to pursue God, not just to get through something, but to get to Him. To trust Him. From encounter. From experience.
Earlier this morning, I saw a post that read:
“It’s 3 am.
My heart is heavy, and sleep won’t come.
I’m at rock bottom mentally, financially and emotionally.
So I write.
It’s one of the few things keeping me sane.”
That hit deep. I remembered the countless early mornings when I poured out my heart to God through writing, tears, and prayers.
Writing was more than an outlet. It was survival. Prayer became the one thing that made me feel understood.
And now, nearly halfway through the year, I see that what felt like pressing and shaking was God was drawing me nearer. Not just to fill a need, but to speak to and put him first. To ask him first. To get directions and guidance from him first.
I’m learning that faith is not just believing in what God can do, but trusting in who He is even when I can’t see the outcome.
The story is still unfolding. But now, I’ve learned that everything fully surrendering to him will be taken care of.
ABOUT ME
I’m Carey-Lee Dixon, a creative at heart with a deep-rooted passion for helping others by sharing my story, my journey, knowledge and skills. I am a creative partner to women ready to show up boldly and build with intention. After years of side-hustling alongside my 9-to-5 job and honing my skills in branding and design, I stepped fully into my journey as a full-time entrepreneur, committed to helping women grow their presence with clarity, courage, and confidence.
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